I have been quiet for a bit not only here but on my Instagram as well. I guess I needed to think and think some more. Don’t get me wrong, I am still thinking. You may be wondering what could have been thinking about that I had to disappear? Well, as it turns out, I have to do a lot thinking and reflecting.
I have been reflecting about my career, plans, hobbies, skills, and what is it that I want to do with my life. The big question that is pushing forward these questions, is simply this: Do I want to keep on teaching for the next 20-30 years of my life? There, I said it. This does not mean I intend to quit or resign from my job at USA. At least, not in the foreseeable future. It means that there is time in your life when you get to a certain age, when you need to look at things in your life and ask yourself, is this all? Along with that, I am a person who is always looking for more. I am a restless soul, always looking for more.
When I worked on the pieces for my show last summer/fall, I enjoyed it immensely and I would be lying if Id id not say that I fantasized every day about going on my own and creating art works, designs, etc… But then I went back to teaching and as the semester got busy, these questions were lingering but in the back of my head. That is until the day one of my students observed that I should take my lettering to the next level. I kept practicing after that conversation but once March came around the corner, I found myself needing to step back not only because of the time I need to dedicate to the large project I am working on, but also because I feel I need to think about the next level more. I don’t have an answer yet and I may go back to my daily practice soon, but for now, I am in a reflecting mode.
The other reason that has made me reflect is time management.Time is an asset that, for me is even more limited than for other people. Having to deal with limitations imposed by factors I only have partial control over, is and continues to be challenging as well. And then there is always the beloved computer technical problems which collide at the worst possible moment.
Needless to say, reflecting has been what my life is about these days. No answers yet but I hope and pray I will find what I am looking for. In the meantime, I am grateful for many things. Let’s just start with three:
I am grateful because tomorrow is our 15th year anniversary. We are different, older, a little bigger around the edges, and with a teenager and a pre-teen in the house. We love them and love to see them grow.
I am grateful because Spring break is around the corner.
I hope we can continue talking about interesting things.